I survived it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Sem-2 Results were out this Friday.I had to clear my maths-2, otherwise I would have suffered a year's drop.I was nervous,very nervous.it was too close to call."Passed"it showed on the monitor.had a huge sigh of relief.
I would'nt even let my enemy to go through what I have gone through in the last 4-5 months..or may be I would :p.... knowing that it was DO OR DIE or in my case DO OR "DROP".I can tell you my friends that it's not easy..not at all easy to survive this kind of a situation ....coz not only you have to work harder than the previous sem in that paper...and not only coz u have to give more than 6 papers...but the most important of all is "YOU HAVE TO HAVE IMMENSE MENTAL STRENGTH TO GET OUT OF IT".not that I did ....but u surely need some ...I made very small and suttle changes on how I approached the paper..and I guess that did work ...only just though..got a 40 ......escaped from the skin of my teeth ....but what the hell... "I DID"

but my heart goes out to those who did'nt survive .......ohh I gotta add another thing ......this year the results have come so late ......that my nervousness point went on a "HIGH RISE"....it was getting on my nerves now...I would have sued the university if it had taken another 2 weeks :p.......coming back to who did'nt survive ....not they were not good enough but they may be and just may be ...they could not take it anymore ....engineering was getting to them .....pressure got to them ..It almost got me too .....but I guess the university thought I was not good enough to get a drop :p.....

HOW DID I CELEBRATE: frankly I don't feel elated....even now I am little disillusioned...a little lost....It has'nt sunk in as yet I guess...It's not easy U know to wait ,wait and wait nervously for 3 months after u have given "THE EXAM OF YOUR LIFE"and then being told that u passed .....huh...really :p....but when I heared the news I did jump 3 times :D.....frnds in college said they wanted a party ......gave a party in the canteen as soon as the results came to college..."40 MILA ....ARRE CENTURY MARAA, AB TOH AUR BADAA PARTY" one of the guys said .....LOL......coke was splashed all over me as my 400 bucks went out of the drain ...but what the heck ....400 bucks ai'nt equal too 1 year drop ..is it? :p

If you check my orkut profile now ......the caption or tagline or whatever you call it says it all ......
"I AM NOT BACK GUYS ................I AM REBORN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Magar ye acchanak hua kya ?????

Mohabbat kabhi maine ki to nahin thi
Kisiki nigahon se pi to nahin thi
Magar yeh achanak hua kya, ho ho ho

O jaan-e-jaan yeh sach hain ki
Mein apni mohabbat ka izhaar
Kabhi khul ke na kar saka
Magar meri aankhen
Hamesha meri dil ki haalat batati rahi hain
Aur tu hain ke mujhse bekhabar aaj bhi hain
Mere dil ki har dhadkan sirf tera naam leti hain
Sirf tera naam

Tu saanson mein samaye
Tu dhadkan ko churaye
Kahi deewana ho jaoo na tera
Pehli nazar ka pehla nasha
Dil mein utarta jaaye sanam
Sharmake mujhse milna tera
Jaadoo sa karta jaaye sanam
Yeh beqarari aisi khumari
Pehle kabhi to mujhpe na hui
Kabhi dil pe yoon bekhudi to nahin thi
Kisise mujhe aashiqui to nahin thi
Magar yeh achanak hua kya, ho ho ho

Kitne hi chehre dekhe magar
Maine chuna hain bas ek tujhe
Har pal ho meri baahon mein tu
Mil jaaye aisi kismat mujhe
Dil yeh pukara tera nazara
Karta hi jaoon o jaan-e-jaan
Mujhe pehle itni khushi to nahin thi
Yoon mehki hui zindagi to nahin thi
Magar yeh achanak hua kya, ho ho ho
Tu saanson mein samaye
Tu dhadkan ko churaye
Kahi deewana ho jaoo na tera

Mohabbat kabhi maine ki to nahin thi
Kisiki nigahon se pi to nahin thi
Magar yeh achanak hua kya, ho ho ho

A Great Sonu Nigam song ..........and before You begin to start thinking something .......let me just say I just like this song and nothing else......... :p

I can see the good life,but...........

Ok this is the first time I am writing a poem and so if you don't like it, don't abuse me :p
this is what I came up with !!!!!

I do see him everyday
he does look the same
but to be like him
am I really game ?

Look at him now
he looks so happy
with his good ol' pals
who I feel are all crappy

but are they really crappy
or am I just being mean ?
may be a little jealous ....
which is all to be seen

He does not attend lectures
but is the class topper
and for all the girls out there
he seems a jaw dropper

but moi don't care
or should I really do
coz let's face it
that's a good life too .....

look at him again
has no tension no worry
and when the "P.L" will come
he will all be in a hurry

Do I need to be like him
will it then be all dark
coz to have that recognition
I have to leave that "mark"

I can see the "good life"
it does look good to the " T "
but I guess to be successful
I just have to be "me"..........

Sense of Nostalgia

On a lazy saturday weekend morning I usually stay at my home and with these wicked rains around it's better to stay indoors.And ofcourse my favourite paastime at home is watching The Tele...So as I was surfing through all the channels,I came across the promo of Gandhi-my father and as I was about to change the channel,something stopped me...A song which played in the background of the promo almost shook me up...A sense of nostalgia,pride and past memories filled my heart with sorrow... the song was ......

Raghupati Raghav Rajaram Patit Paavan Sitaram
Sitaram Jai Sitaram Bhaj pyare tu Sitaram
Ishwar Allah Tere Naam Sabko sanmati de Bhagwan.
Raat ko Nindiya Din ko KaamKabhi Bhajoge Prabhu Ka NaamKarte rahiye aapne Kaam Lete Rahiye Prabhu Ka Naam
Raghupati Raghav Rajaram Patit Paavan Sitaram

This song took my 10 years back,The time when I was in school.I used to love social studies .Though my favorite subject was Geography,I did'nt particularly hate History.Infact I enjoyed it.I thought the subject was a complete story book....If somebody comes and tells me that he/she hates history,I would never be able to figure out why?I would definately get an impresion that he/she does not like reading story books,the person definately does not like reading books for that matter.... :p

Coming back to the song,When our 60'th independence day is just around the corner,I heard this song on the tele and felt a bit lost.The song revived in me a certain kind of pride and made me feel so different.It felt as if a certain kind of aura had surrounded me.It's so sad that when we leave our school we forget our history.The songs that we sang in school,glorifying our culture,our heritage and our past .....where is that today ??....as if there's no need for it ....I don't feel patriotic enough now-a-days and I can say the same for my friends..

Our society does celebrate the cultural events though,be it the independence day or the republic day....Atleast by attending those ceremonies some amount of that pride comes into affect...atleast I can stand in attention and salute the national flag when the anthem is being played......I would like to urge all the youngsters to atleast attend that ceremony and feel something....You can go back to your school days and feel a sense of nostalgia yourself........

I would like to end by this beautifully written thing that I found while surfing

Chaaya Hai Dekho Phirse Azaadi Ka Samaan...
Jhoom Raha Hai Dekho Phirse Hindustaan..
Aao Sab Khushiyaan Manaayein...
Azaadi Ko Phirse Dohraayein....
Aao Sab Mil Jhulke Ab...
Is Desh Ko Dulhan Banaayein....
Azaadi Ko Phirse Dohraayein....

Time to Introspect.....May be change thyself ????

Recently one of my good friend wrote this testimonial about me in orkut ......I had written one for him and so he returned the favour .......... The guys reading this may think that what is written here is sweet .......but I thought am I really like that .......if I am then ...well ............

This is what he wrote

Anurag is an old friend I know for some years now.......one of the most "sudhra" and "seedha" bachas i've seen, and it's difficult gettin such friends these days.Very polite and soft-spoken, he's this chubby guy who's got this strange phobia while "Crossing the roads".Had gr8 fun durin our days at Jr. college and were 2 of the very few people who attended lectures.Got his own style of callin my name which i am pretty much now accustomed to....He's in his own world and it's his nature and behaviour that impresses me the most. Overall a gr8 friend to hav and one that u can trust upon.Am very grateful to him for being my good friend.

now I am not glorifying myself or anything ...........but there are few things which had me thinking .......let's go pointwise
POINT 1.One of the sudhra and seedha bachas ...........

now here he meant to say seedha and saadha bacha .......coz to be a sudhra one i have to have a bad past which i actually don't ... :p......

POINT2.it's difficult gettin such friends these days .........

now this thing i have to say is a part of his own fiction.......surely ..and i mean surely he has written this to glorify the testimonial .......and i promise u that i did'nt pay him .. :p.......
on a serious note though i do think he had point.....why not ......he could be true ........i leave it for u to judge ........

POINT3.He's in his own world and it is his nature and behaviour that impresses me the most

well yes this is true .......it shows that this guy has observed me ..allright...I do remain in my own world.....again i did'nt pay him when he said that i have a good nature and good behaviour .......

Now what's there to introspect in this you would ask ????

I want to you to look at point no 1 and 3 ..............do I need to be a seedha and a saadha "baccha" ........will i be able to sustain myself in this competitive world if i remain so seedha and saadha ........In one way it is good ........but in all other ways it's bad .......you might be shaking your head now ......but am telling you it does not work .......

point no.3........I remain in my own world ..........now I don't know really know how to change this .......in one way he is trying to suggest that i don't open up .........Yes may be i need to open up ....need to be more proactive ........need to be more smart ........being alone in that way......does not work you know ......it does'nt ...........

The world is at your feet to conquer ANURAG and always remember sky is the limit .................

P.s ................I saw a very good thing today ........I was not able to find my feet in a crowded nmmt bus when I saw a guy of my age just hold his bag in one hand and take out a book (not a text book mind you)..it looked like a good story book ....and standing in one feet almost falling over in the crowd started reading ..........Now most of them around .....guys sitting or standing were busy listening to music on their cell-phones ........which i agree is a good form of relaxation .......but it was nice to see a good positive thing .........A guy reading a good book and that too standing ..............~KUDOS~

Two Days Of Goan "Salsa"

Goa ....aahaa .......is really paradise on earth ......even if we had just two days in hand ...We did make the most of it.As We landed at the Goa airport we headed straight to the Calangute beach resort..The journey was ohh so tiring .......had just slept 1 hour the other night and sitting in that locked qualis I almost was dazed ......aur kitna ghanta uncle ??? was the cry from the back seat .......bas aur kuch 45 minutes came the reply .......geee I would just have the longest nap of my life once I reach the hotel I thought ......but we did'nt have time though ......finally we were there .....without any nap we headed straight to the Calangute beach .......

Friday -> The most serene and beautiful experience in this world is the wind just gushing your face when you are about to enter a beach.ohh it feels so nice ........No assignments no vivas ....no EXAMS....... we stepped inn ......the water came gushing in and swept the sands out of my feet ......it almost took me with it but I was carefull ......after a few minutes we heard a guy whistle which meant come out of the beach .......then headed staright to the hotel again .....I did see some foreigners riding bikes on the streets while coming back which I thought was interesting......and then I had a long nap ........I even skipped my lunch .....
in the evening it was time for a cruise in the ship .......paradise was it's name .......this I thought was the most boring part of my entire stay ......the ship had three decks the groung deck which had a disco ...the middle deck had the main performances and was totally covered and the upper deck was all open..the performances of the various artists did'nt really have me dancing but it did revive the goan kind of music ........afterwards we did come to know that the side ship by the name of santa monica was a better bet ......... :(

Saturday->The qualis guy was on it's way ........We needed to cover all the beaches.....You know I saw 'n' number of liquor stores in my way .......the qualis guy later told me that there are more liqour stores here than tea stalls :).......did I have liqour ......ummm well if 5 sips of Gin is liqour then I did :)........anyways we covered up the Baga ,Vagador ,Anjuna beaches and all were superb ..........later on we headed south to the best beach I have seen so far ..........
Colva is the name ...........the place had a different kind of atmosphere The beaches were amazing ....serene to the core ......As we entered the beaches .....there were 'n' number of shells struck inside the sand .......You know there's another thing ........every beach that I went to ..... I was approached by a guy who was a tatoo expert ........sahab tatoo chahyiye.......ugh I hate tatoo ..... I need a clear skin maan .....sorry .........
In the evening it was time to go to panjim ....Capital of goa .......it's the main city .....roamed the streets of panjim.....quite a kool city must say .......did some shopping ......and back to the hotel again ............

Sunday->flight was at 5 .pm so we had to reach the airport by 3.......we decided to take all the luggages with us and do the sight seeing simultaneously........Mini goa .......Guys u gotta try this place ........it's a museum cum a architectural marvel ........u will also find India's Longest Sculptural Statue here .........It comes in the southern part of goa and is surely a must visit ..........fort aguda was our next destination ...........well it was good but nothing compared to the Shivagi Forts in maharashtra ........but nice portuegese architecture involved there ......A few visits to the mangeshkar temple and a classic portuegese goan type of a church were the next two spots that we visited........that was it ........it was time to bid adieu ........did'nt wanna go .......but had to .......Two days of goan salsa came to an end :(.......................

P.S: Guys My sem-4 results were declared on friday ....I had got a missed call from my friend on that day itself ..but was too scared to call him up to know my result .......well I did paas .......got a 60 %.......just made my weekend stay in goa an extra special one......ohh another thing .......remember I had written a blog on my p.com viva experience .........
haha........... Well I got a kool 22/25 in that viva ...............
so well being a Bengali does help Sometimes....... :p..........

Goa bound ........

I am off to Goa this weekend ........this will be my second trip there .......the first trip was about 14 years ago where I was not sure of my own existence .... :p ........but I remember that trip very vividly as that was the first time in my life that I had ......errr we had boreded the plane......It was an exciting moment and this time too will be taking a flight........and ofcourse the beautiful beaches there ..........hopefully the atmosphere will be all serene and peaceful and not be affected by the rains ......there is a good thing and a bad thing about this trip as well ..........the good thing is .......atlast i am getting a vacation ....... but the bad thing is it's only for 2 days .... :(........and so have to make the most of it ........
my sem-4 results are also going to be due this friday ........and i will be leaving @ 2.am on friday morning .......but I am not tensed at all ........soch naa kya ........jo bhi hoga dekha jayegaa .......there's another thing that I wanted to write about and it was actually regarding my air travel experiences ........but that am gonna write in my next blog and hopefully share with you my experiences of that beautiful place ...........till then ......ciao .........